What is it like to feel like society is pressuring you from all sides? You wont know unless you are there for something more important than the pressure. If you have no reason to stick around, then you likely will leave and find a place where you can live a life and make ends meet. I can't.
Right now, I live on the Faroe Islands and only worked low paying jobs that I find unrewarding. I am unable to make payments on my debt or support those I love, but those I love are firmly rooted here. I have a choice. I can either live in a society that tries to reject me and keep me down, or leave them for greener pastures. It isn't an easy choice to make. Ripping yourself from those you love makes you look like a loveless ass. Staying around and I truly would be a dead beat undeserving of them anyways. Even the ones I love will wish I went away. Every attempt I have made at fitting in has proven to be not enough to make ends meet and establish a life here, and the attempts have from time to time back fired and made things worse.
I suppose this is always the risk of starting fresh, something new. I took that chance and I am still hounded by my old debts and chains that weigh. I still owe well over a hundred thousand dkk away. I am behind on child support, which never has happened before moving to these islands. I still mourn the death of my dad and worry about when my mom will die as well. While I do get to see my kids at least once a week now, I will need to leave them again to attempt another new start back in Denmark. Things have changed, and while seeing my kids is a very good change, everything else has been a change for the worse or completely unchanged.
I support I am learning that running away from your emotions wont help you escape. While economics can be a rational reason to start anew, what ever emotional baggage you are trying to abandon will just follow you where ever you go. Any new start you make in life must make room for both yourself and what you carry with you, financial and emotional. Society wont change just for you and the Faroe Islands isn't making any room for me.
So Denmark, here I come.
- Servus
Right now, I live on the Faroe Islands and only worked low paying jobs that I find unrewarding. I am unable to make payments on my debt or support those I love, but those I love are firmly rooted here. I have a choice. I can either live in a society that tries to reject me and keep me down, or leave them for greener pastures. It isn't an easy choice to make. Ripping yourself from those you love makes you look like a loveless ass. Staying around and I truly would be a dead beat undeserving of them anyways. Even the ones I love will wish I went away. Every attempt I have made at fitting in has proven to be not enough to make ends meet and establish a life here, and the attempts have from time to time back fired and made things worse.
I suppose this is always the risk of starting fresh, something new. I took that chance and I am still hounded by my old debts and chains that weigh. I still owe well over a hundred thousand dkk away. I am behind on child support, which never has happened before moving to these islands. I still mourn the death of my dad and worry about when my mom will die as well. While I do get to see my kids at least once a week now, I will need to leave them again to attempt another new start back in Denmark. Things have changed, and while seeing my kids is a very good change, everything else has been a change for the worse or completely unchanged.
I support I am learning that running away from your emotions wont help you escape. While economics can be a rational reason to start anew, what ever emotional baggage you are trying to abandon will just follow you where ever you go. Any new start you make in life must make room for both yourself and what you carry with you, financial and emotional. Society wont change just for you and the Faroe Islands isn't making any room for me.
So Denmark, here I come.
- Servus
Good luck in DK. I hear you about finances and decisions. I'm hoping that you can hang on and also find something worthwhile, not the least because you have children. Also for yourself and those children, I hope that you are emotionally healthy as well. Financial troubles seem to weigh on the mind.
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